Faffing my way through LIFE

Through the eyes of a millennial... This is the REALITY of moving around. The REALITY of balancing both holding on and letting go. The reality of how this life can AFFECT you. In both the positive, and slightly less glamorous ways. The millennial generation are a group of travellers. We take gap years, move from one spot to the next, and spend months away at a time ‘finding ourselves’. We live with a somewhat selfish sense of non attachment. It is not in our blood to sit still, it is not in our nature to stay content; We seem to constantly search for, and lust over a life that is a little more exciting, adventurous, and fulfilling than the one we are currently living in. Wow. That sounds incredibly negative. It’s not. Believe me. It’s seriously wonderful- the fact that we have the option to go somewhere else and live a whole new life. The fact that our overly excited brains are not allowing us to stay stagnant. We are exposed to people from different cultures. We ar...

Read on for fuller understanding of this photo... I will, however, warn you now. This blog is ANOTHER anecdote related to positive thinking. It is another god damn piece of writing by someone who now believes they can change their life through mindset. It IS another fucking blog on the power of your mind.  But through the recreational, and in this case, somewhat accidental use of MDMA. At Carnival in Notting Hill London.  And I do now genuinely believe I can change the course of my life through mindset.  By nature, I have a somewhat fiery temper, am overly dramatic, and have a tendency to react to situations before thinking rationally, if at all. Absolute headcase at the best of times.  So considering this, a little mindset shift need not be a terrible thing...and I endeavour it to be the way I shall live going forward. Especially as move #7 is on the horizon. To set the scene; Carnival is a celebration of London's Caribbean culture. The entirety o...

MODERN DATING IN ALL ITS GLORY.. So, fellow singletons, players in this world of online and 'out there' dating...This is a somewhat heartfelt but very honest reaction to something I recently read regarding why modern relationships do not last, which quite genuinely felt like I was being punched in the face from all angles at least 20 times over… Persevere with the first few paragraphs, and please trust me that it is going to end positively! We all know, and are well aware that modern dating, for want of a better expression, is absolutely and utterly FUCKED (sorry). And yes I have every right to say this, as I am currently, and have been for a very long time, as single as it gets. Sadly it isn’t even 100% by choice. I have, for what feels like the 100th time, deleted all dating apps on my phone, thrown my hands dramatically in the air and, this time no want of a better expression, said FUCK THEM ALL. I must be almost a month going stro...

Five years ago I was preparing to move from Canada to London to pursue a dance career where I would be working what seemed like five jobs "on the side", all of which I dreaded going to. Ten years ago I was doing every weekend dance competition that I could fit in whilst maintaining some pretty decent grades at high school. At both of these times, I can assure you that what I am currently doing with my life, and the journey it has been since leaving full time study, was NOT in any way, shape or form what I had in my life vision at both those points. However, does this mean that I am not successful in life? Does this mean I am not living my dream?  Does it mean that I am living right now, at this moment, with a sense of failure.  No. Dreams change. Passions change. Change is life.  Yes it is widely known that extremely rich and 'successful' people all have/have had, or consistently have, five and ten year life plans. Much resp...

HE UGLY PART OF HAPPINESS WARNING. This may offend, but in no way is it intended to do so. I am not commenting on clinically diagnosed depression or those dealing with it. I am in no way stating that it is normal or OKAY to be very low for an extended period of time. I am however, commenting on the human nature to feel highs, lows, and everything in-between.  I am not writing this to pass extreme judgement. I am writing this to hold myself accountable.  As many in especially my generation, I am notorious for constantly seeking MORE. imagining and lusting over the ‘perfect’ life in a completely different place and situation to where I currently am. This image is a life that my overly excited brain deems BETTER and more fulfilling.  What good does all of this envisioning do if I am not actually LIVING and EXPERIENCING all that my actual life has to offer? It is only fitting that this notion of greener pastures elsewhere has quite directly lead me on the r...

My generation are a group of travellers. We take gap years, move from one spot to the next, and spend months away at a time ‘finding ourselves’. Not to mention to amount of other we find too... It’s like we’re bred not to sit still, not to be content; we constantly search for just a little more, more, more whatever that may be. Wow. That sounded almost negative... It’s not. Believe me. It’s seriously wonderful- the fact that we have the option to go somewhere else and live a whole new life. We meet copious amounts of people who influence and inspire us. We consistently look to achieve and experience more. And gain a large amount of internal retrospection.  But, fuck, it can get tiring. Especially in social media, travel/living abroad is only portrayed in a ‘positive’ light. And with good reason, because who actually wants to deal with or know about the negative parts? BULLSHIT. I do. And I’m going to write on it right now....